February 2012
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Sebuah Doa.
Untukmu yang tubuhnya letih dari keseharian yang penuh beban, dan yang hatinya rindu bagi kehidupan yang utuh, katakanlah.
“Tuhanku, Engkau sedemikian pengasih sehingga aku tak mungkin Kau telantarkan. KekasihMu yang kecil ini memang agak nakal. Belum ikhlas meninggalkan kesenangan yang tak penting, masih mempertahankan ketergantungan yang tak sehat, dan suka menunda tapi tak sabar...
Dammit I'm Mad - Demetri Martin
Dammit I’m mad.
Evil is a deed as I live.
God, am I reviled? I rise, my bed on a sun, I melt.
To be not one man emanating is sad. I piss.
Alas, it is so late. Who stops to help?
Man, it is hot. I’m in it. I tell.
I am not a devil. I level “Mad Dog”.
Ah, say burning is, as a deified gulp,
In my halo of a mired rum tin.
I erase many men. Oh, to be man, a sin.
Is evil in a clam? In a trap?
No. It is...
“People don’t always need advice. Sometimes all they really need is a hand...”
February 20. Exactly a month since the last 20th. Maybe I should stop wishing for a gift from that particular person.
Wake up, dear self! You’re just being too naive.
“It’s just hard to stay positive when nothing ever feels right.”
Ada Cinta
Ucapkanlah kasih satu kata yang kunantikan. Sebab ku tak sanggup membaca matamu, mendengar bisikmu. Nyanyikanlah kasih senandung kata hatimu. Sebab ku tak mampu mengartikan getar ini.
Sebab ku meragu pada dirimu.
Mengapa berat ucapkan cinta padahal ia ada, dalam rinai hujan dalam terang bulan, juga dalam sedu sedan?
Mengapa sulit mengaku cinta padahal ia terasa, dalam rindu dendam, hening...
You don’t understand because it’s not you who feels too much, who thinks too much, who cries too much, and who loves too much.
“I’m irrevocably, unconditionally in love with someone. Wait… Did I...”
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Let’s say that I’ve been whole-heartedly accepting the fact that hypocrisy and people who bad-mouth and back-talk other people respectively do exist, around the corner. The irony that I can’t hardly bear is when those people were the ones who were used to be so close to me in the past, do that to me. That part, hurts me to the core. And it’s sad, really sad.
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“You can’t run away from your troubles. There ain’t no place that...”
– Uncle Remus (Song of the South)
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“Saya hanya bisa mengamati dari sisi ini, menunggu, berharap yang terbaik.”
– Status facebook seorang adik kelas galau tersayang, Tika Pebriani :))))
I thought..
Simba: But you're not scared of anything.
Mufasa: I am, today. I thought I might lose you.
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“Kamu ini, koyo ngenteni thukuling jamur ing masa katela.. Inget, iki wes...”
– Perkataan seorang teman dekat dari zaman dulu, yang sekarang jauh di mata.
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A Comfortable Relationship?
Hey, there, rainbow.
I think we are all just looking for that one person that we can be ourselves around, that one person who will love you and accept you for who you are, your silly awkward side and your serious side, too. We are all just looking for that “comfortable relationship”, you know that?
You don’t care what you are doing, because as long as that one special person is...
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“aku percaya rencana-Mu indah, walau jalan kesana kadang berkerikil.”
– begitu kuat dan tulus rasa ini, aku pun tak mengerti alasannya. pintaku ya Rabb, lindungi hati ini, kuatkan jiwa ini. mudahkanlah jalan kami, dan izinkan kebersamaan ini. (via ceritayunda)
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“Accept and trust me for who I am, and I’ll accept and trust you for who...”
– A Saying on a Lecturer’s Room
January 2012
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Random Talk with B #1
B: Well, it's better for us not to depend or fall too deep in boys. You know, they sometimes do this and that, promise us heaven, but then they were actually just... Saying lies.
Me: Yeah. And they could move easily... I wonder what kind of magic spell they use to be able to obliviate memories and forget feelings in no time.
B: Hahaha.. Right. You're right. They never deserve your tears, dear. There are heaps of other things that are worth being cried over.
Me: No doubt to your lines, B... Why should I cry and fight for them, if they were never even there? If all they have to me was only a hazy, feeble, and most importantly, temporary feelings? Guess I have to learn how to play, instead of being played. (evilsmirk)
B: (evilsmirk) that's my girl. Let's play the game!
Me & B: Cheers! (toast)
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Can I?
Can I try you on for a day? To see how well the spaces of you fill the spaces in me. To see how your skin feels against my skin. Or to see what it feels like when our noses collide in an awkward manner.
Can I try you on for a day? To feel the warmth of what it’s like on a winter day with your arms around me. Or to feel the cold sweat underneath your chin with my head tucked in underneath...
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Just another thought.
Dear self,
We know already that overthinking and overanalyzing things just turn out to ruin everything. We comprehend already that over curiousity has the ultimate power to crush us into pieces. We concluded that after overcoming that, we’ll be all okay with everything. And I know that we are on our way to cope with those things.
But then, do you know? There is still one threatening...
“Wrote a letter to a friend a few days ago. She asked me, what does he look like...”
– Read A Little Poetry (via leopoldgursky)
:)
“Being deeply loved by someone gives you heaps of strength, while loving someone...”
– :)
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“A single “what if?” has the power to wake you up instantly from your...”
– Just an insecure late-night thought.
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Strange.
It’s all very strange. Sometimes I love you so hard that I want to throw up. Sometimes I love you so hard that it feels wonderful, tingles all over my body, happiness shot straight through each organ… And that’s me loving you even though
you’re not here anymore.
Imagine that! Imagine the joy I feel loving you now, when it doesn’t matter, when you aren’t around to feel it from me, and...
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Me: Masa depan itu misteri cuy, jangan mendahului yang di Atas.
X: Yah, kita emang cuma punya pensil cuy buat nulis rencana. Tapi Allah punya penghapusnya, sehingga Allah bisa mengganti rencana kita dengan yang lebih baik.
Me: Like this dah cuy! :)
“I fall, I rise, I make mistakes, I live, I learn, I’ve been hurt, but...”
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“He’s neither creative nor proactive. But I love every single thing that he...”
– :))))))))
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“Imperfection is beauty. Madness is genius and it is better to be absolutely...”
– Marilyn Monroe (via eletheowl)
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Dad: (yelling at the TV)
Me: You're yelling like the players are actually gonna listen to you.
Dad: You're in love with a boy that doesn't even know you exist.
Me: (silence) Don't talk to me.
Hazy
Have no idea of what to do while waiting for a reply chat from someone. Guess I’ll post another song lyric of one of my favorites. This one is Rosi Golan’s Hazy. This song is really simple, really simple. The notes, the way the guitar strumming does to the song, and the voice. However, the lyric is inevitably beautiful and as for me, it’s deep, really deep.
Call me melancholic,...
I try to hold on, but it’s just too much. We can’t play on broken strings, dear.
My dream. Him.
Yes, I am a dreamer and I dream about him.
I don’t think I can find a perfect box which is huge enough for me to put away my dreams. I don’t think I can find a shelter strong enough to protect myself from the monstrous storms and rains when this dream ends. I don’t think I can find a morphine that is able to paralyze my brain and heart when the dream is drifting and floating...
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A Thought.
I know I get a little bit too nervous, too protective, or too jealous sometimes. The thought of you being with someone else who could make you happier than I could, who could love you more than I could, and whom you love more than you may love me, are getting on my nerves. And mostly, the thought of something wrong, unwanted, or harmful happens to you, is just unbearable! So they keep on haunting...
December 2011
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A conversation that fits..... (500 Days of Summer)
Tom: Hey Summer, I gotta ask you something.
Summer: What?
Tom: Hmm, what's going on between us?
Summer: (smiles) I don't know. I don't care! Well, I'm happy, aren't you too?
Tom: (sighs, smiles) yeah, I'm happy........
“All it needs is some time, a little bit of sunshine and rain, and voilá.”
– Flik (A Bug’s Life)
“What would I give to live where you are? What would I pay to stay here beside...”
– Ariel (The Little Mermaid)
“Promise me you won’t forget about me, ever. Not even when I am a hundred.”
– Christopher Robin
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“Well, being with him is one of my dream coming true. And I’m afraid that...”
– Another insecure late-night thought
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Dear, Diary
Have you ever felt a wave of inexplicable sadness flows over your heart for days? I’m sure you have. Have you ever wanted something so bad that you can’t help wishing for it every time? Yeah, I’m sure you guys have. And have you ever desperately waited for a text from someone that you keep on checking your phone in like, every minutes or so? Well, we all have.
What I believe you...
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“I spent a lot of time being miserable. It’s like misery is an old friend. And it...”
– One Tree Hill (via eletheowl)
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“Life is funny sometimes, it can push pretty hard, but if you look close enough...”
– One Tree Hill (via julie911)
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“It’s not about finding someone who won’t fight with you, who...”
– rambling mind
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